Work has become like a drag race… full throttle until the end. I don’t like it. It is allowing me to see the twisted sickness of human nature. Customers take advantage of weaknesses in the system, loop holes in processes, and stress they impose on the staff. It, at times, is so unbearable you have to walk away from the desk and stroll the building for 20 minutes just to keep or regain composer. This is a common for many. Now I know why smokers take so many breaks. I am burned out and need a vacation.
I am putting my resume together. I think it is time to at least begin looking until other opportunities. I like what Carlo’s does… http://www.ragamuffinsoul.com/ Working on a team like that would be amazing. I need to raise support or go on deputation to raise money to quit my job and work for Sojourn Church. That is where my heart and thoughts are 90% of the time. Goofy perhaps. The calling is clear… timing, not so much.
I have this vision for Sojourn downtown. In my mind I see the space… I can see every aspect of it. I can see people going in and out, art, music, kids, interactive media, community, concerts, exhibits, and the gospel intertwined in all of it. I have been given the spiritual gift of faith. It is interesting, but this is the first place it has been allowed to be “used”. Interesting me thinks.
I cut my American Express Card up. That’s right… Cut it with scissors… SNIP, SNIP. We were using it to live way outside our level of income. It was too easy to use it as a crutch. I am a spender. It is nothing for me to drop a ton of money on my addictions… i.e. books, bagels, chai, moleskines, software, and fine leather bibles 
It is our goal to pay my jeep off this year. There is no way in hell I can do that if I keep spending like I am a freaking king.
I am enjoying taking pictures with my new camera. I am even more stoked about doing videos. As cheesy as they are, it is fun. So now I have found another expensive hobby to involve myself in.
My reading has tapered off. This is not good. There are not enough hours in the day to pack it all in.
I need to learn how to stop “beating myself up” over the things I don’t do and simply learn from it.
Video Editing software expires in 24 days… dang it!!! I think I will put a donation button on the site and virtual panhandle for the funds… who am I kidding… that will never work.
I wish the weather was warm… cold sucks!!!
I like surfing videos… They are relaxing…
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Do what I did and start an “anonymous” blog to complain about career issues.
Good luck with all that vocational stuff, man. I have no doubt that you’d be a tremendous asset working full-time at Sojourn or in some other form of outreach. Whether there’s the funding out there somewhere to support it… or whether God wants you to do some sort of soul-sucking day job to support it…. well, I can’t answer these in my own life, let alone in someone else’s.