“Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results” - Albert Einstein
It is this time every year I begin to reflect over the events of the past year. Since I keep a daily journal, I spend time reading past entries from the days and months that have gone by. This year is no different… As I was writing this morning I stopped and began to thumb through all the entries of 2007. I also took a peak at 2005 and 2006. What I had found is a disturbing pattern. It seems for the past several years my daily writing have been consumes with the following…
1. Work - How it is dissatisfying and meaningless…
2. Spiritual Journey - Tension with church and direction, relationship with God, desire and struggles with ministry, the joy of an unadulterated walk with the Lord and the misery when I adulterate it.
3. Difficulties with family and family expectations.
4. Health
That also seems to be evident in my blog… It looks like it is time to change my strategy.
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Hmm. Where was Moses taken before he led God’s nation? For 40 years. Is it possible to say that tending a flock of dependents … wanderers … accident prone … wooly dressed dullards was a smidgen dissatisfying and meaningless? Acceptance of His road, His path, His shepherding now seems unworthy. But HE knows you better than you. And the Great I AM is gradually weeding your heart. Choose joy, while in the process. Embrace where you are. Decide to change where you know you should … gradual … quiet … resolute … undeterred by the evil one who authors confusion and discontent. Before Egypt comes, maybe begin with the three women in your life. What things do they love, and are not on your fondness list? Maybe there, close to your great loves, you can discover more blessings … where little becomes much. Wrestle well. His hand is on your shoulder.
YES!!! This is exactly what I am learning. I have determined that many of my desires are motivated by the flesh. Imagine, ministry by the flesh. SCARY!!! I have determined that my relationship with Jesus and my family is far more important than any so-called “ministry”. I am hard headed and stiff necked at times. I am so thankful for God’s continual work in my life and for good friends who continually “press in” to my life and journey with me.
You know I love ya, man. Hang on for the ride. HE’s in the traces.
I j’d up to the Huntsville Hospital Wellness Center this morning. I’ll be hitting the one in Jones Valley in the afternoons around 4:30 or 5:00. Yikes. I pray that I stay committed to this.