This morning I finally had a sacred moment of mental clarity. In my world those do not seem to happen that often. It was at that very moment there were no questions… only answers. It was like manifest destiny. It was like seeing the future. I knew what I needed to be doing and how to accomplish it. Truly amazing.
We spend so much time working jobs we hate, to buy things we don’t need, to impress people we dislike. Why do we work 40+ hours a week at a career that has turned into a “job”. Why is the expression on the elevator or at the water cooler… “Working for the weekend” or “How was your weekend? Well, it wasn’t long enough…” Perhaps you find joy and fulfillment at work. I do not. I actually find it stressful, irritating ,and depressing. My company is good and try treat me very well. I think I got spoiled working for a Dot Com. Very laid back environment, even though there was times of 16 hour days and high stress it felt like a team. It felt like we were all working together to produce a product that we could be proud off. There was no clock to punch. Our schedule could flex. We were never worried about someone looking over our shoulder. We knew what the job was and we did it. I am not cut out for the corporate/GOV world. I am not a clean cut, nice and neat, cube head. I am more of a free spirit and need that kind of environment to work.
I often thing a career in academia would be a better choice. More open schedule… the ability to impart knowledge and wisdom in people seems very rewarding. This is what turns me on about a ministry based job… the ability to touch people lives with things that matter on an eternal scale is an incredible turn on!!! I think it offers more personal fulfillment and reward.
I think life is too short to sit in a cube, stare at a screen, and make sure a server is running so people can pretend they are making a global differences and that there job has significance. Every week it seems I am getting “death notices” at work of some long time employee passing away. Wendy and I have a friend who is fighting lung cancer with a 0% chance of recovering. You never expect to wake up with the news that you have 6 months or a year to live. It is too easy to piss way time on things that are worthless.
Back to my moment of clarity… I invisioned Wendy teaching and performing Film and Acting at a State University. I flashed over to me sitting on the front porch of a house… reading ,writing, and studying for an class or bible study. I envisioned the kid walking to school, to town, to shop. I see an open house full of life and activity people eager to share the life, to learn, to debate and dialog. Most of all I see people laughing and smiling enjoying their life and the lives of others. I see lives fulfilled. I see making memories with people that will last their entire life.
