Some times I wonder why God puts up with my foolishness. My faith at times seems to be so fickle at times. It has been clear to me for several years where God wants me to invest my life. I know that ministry is inevitable for my life because it is God’s direction… Not mine. I know that more preparation, study, direction, mentorship is needed for me to reach those goals.
In the current framework of time and culture there has been ingrained in my generation and in my kids generation a ‘fast food’ mentality. We want it ‘NOW’ and we want it ‘RIGHT’. Or more accurately the ‘Burger King’ mentality… ‘we want it OUR way… right now’.
It is interesting that God does NOT work that way. God is not on my time table. I think that is where most of my tension, stress, and frustration comes from. I have the propensity to want to put God on my time table, on my path, with my rules. On every occasion I find myself beating my head against the wall until I am black and blue and bloody.
Once I wake up from my stupidity I am so thankful that God is “ABBA Father”. I am thankful for his patience, grace, and mercy. I come to the sobering realization that God protects me from myself. 99% of the time I am my own worst enemy. Left to myself I would “cut my head off to spite my face”.
It has been the life and testimony 20th century Christian brothers that have helped me realign my life to completely focus on God and to realize that there is no greater service than service for Jesus Christ and his gospel. Both of these men lost their lives in German Concentration camps in WW2. One of them is Father Maximilian Kolbe
and the other is Dietrich Bonheoffer
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Be encouraged…