I am not an emotional person. However, when Jesus manifest himself in my life that is clearly obvious for me to see, I cry like a teenage prom queen. I know that is not very ‘manly’. This happened once last week and once this week. I have been working on this project at work that has been busting my nuggets for weeks. I finally came to the point where I gave up. Sitting in front of the server after the 6th or 7th error I told God, “I am done… You are sovereign, you know this server better than I do, you know how it needs to be configured to work correctly… You do it!!! I am going to lunch.” So after getting back from lunch I remembered a ’setting’ that needed to be changed. I made the change and the error stopped. I broke down right there in front of the server. Crying like I had been crowned Miss America. It was at that point I started praying out loud… I could not control it… Thanking God for his sovereignty, grace, and personal involvement in my life.
So Monday, configuring the software on the server I ran into another issue. Everything I did was blowing the software up. Once again, “God this is your computer and if you don’t fix it I am jacked!!!” God id so faithful… Things came together and I was able to configure the software. I threw my hands up, started praying, and crying like the afore mentioned prom queen.
This is part of the paradigm shift I am trying to cultivate in my work environment. I am coming to the conclusion the only thing I can do in my own power is screw up. I have to surrender everything to Jesus. I cannot do anything… It required Jesus power and guidance.
Jesus increase my faith… Forgive me for my lack of faith…
